witnessed my first cardiac arrest today...
i think it was slightly macabre how people were still smiling at each other around the scene as medical personnel fought to help tether whatever life the pale gentleman on the floor had left to his body.
i will not forget how his abdomen jerked paradoxically with each compression; how the nurse called "2 minutes!" periodically and the shock of seeing real cpr being performed.
(to be fair i just remembered that this was actually my second cardiac arrest, i saw my first during my a&e attachment last year, but it's different seeing it being performed in the ward with another patient sharing the same bay)
all that practice you hope you will never have to apply being the only chance feasible chance at life.
i also remember standing in the corridor struggling against crying in desperation and hopelessness.
haha - i know many people will say that i am being overly dramatic -
sorry for being human.
