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Wednesday, July 27, 2011

perfect

i can now appreciate what other people think/feel when they see me wasting my youth overanalysing things that do not hold any significance in the universe, namely...
i'm sure you can find much better ways to spend your time and energy. why are you doing this to yourself?
ooh, having a job is perfect! there is no brain capacity for anything else, which explains why i can't even string a decent blog post together and am considering sleeping at 9 pm - when it's still (literally) sunny out.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

dot dot dot

first day of shadowing!

i think i am going to be loving my job - no weekends, no nights, being on call means i start at 12 pm and end at 9 pm, good pay, nice colleagues, nice and supportive seniors, great work environment - what more could i ask for?

have also (somewhat) moved into my new place - the things i like the most so far are: the piano, the fact that my table has drawers, and my (comfy beyond belief!) aussino bedclothes.

other than that - new battles to fight, new demons to face

but things don't seem as daunting as they did before this phase of my life started - maybe it's because i do not currently have the time OR energy to be distressed over stupid things that used to bother me. maybe it's also because i realised that the shit i am going through are the results of my choices and there is nobody else to blame, so all i can do is to suck it up and make the best out of things.

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...

... right?

(i know i'm rambling)

things are changing - i was dreading starting work but as the day went by i realised that work was an escape from all this crap and i was actually excited! (more about the pay than anything else, HAHA)

(i am secretly praying that i somehow miraculously morph into a workaholic - this has been a long awaited dream of mine, lol)

sigh ok i should go. it is 2207 and i have to wake up at 0500.........

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

ugly

you are beautiful 
no matter what they say

bull.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

the invisible wall

people don't know how they really feel until unexpected things happen