it's been exactly two weeks since i've started being a doctor... for real.
haha somehow i still kinda feel like a fraud - mostly 'cos ben found out that ppl with medical degrees are given the title 'dr' honourifically - so technically the only people who are really deserving of the title are people with phds and mds...
(so much for snorting at people who call themselves dr but do not possess a medical degree - guess who the real frauds are? HAHA.)
(ok so maybe this tradition of calling medical degree holders doctor dates way back into the 14th century... but still.)
(this is a sign. i should aim for a phd. -_-)
anyway. how am i finding work? it is still slightly overwhelming at times - i will be honest, i am having very mixed feelings about it. on one hand, i occasionally catch myself almost thinking that i cannot believe i am being paid to be doing something i kinda enjoy (or maybe it's just that i have been doing pretty much the same thing for quite some time without getting paid and therefore getting paid feels weird lol); on the other hand it also kinda feels like i'm... settling.
most of the time i genuinely feel like i was made for medicine, but quite a big part of me occasionally thinks that there must be something more to life than dragging my sorry ass to the hospital at 5 in the morning and dragging it back home at 7 in the evening and spending my life being a scut monkey and overqualified clerk...
haha but of course everybody has to start from the bottom and i fully appreciate that. honestly i leave work feeling very gratified because all my obsessive tendencies flourish when i am in the hospital and i am possibly one of the most obsessive and intense people you could work with (not necessarily in a good way, i admit). i have come to realise that i may also be a closet workaholic HAHA. like i sat my ass down and finished aaaaall my DOTS modules that were due for the 26th, AND i finished everything within 3 days, AND it's 10 days before the deadline...
... and what's more, i even moved on to the next set of DOTS modules which are due 21st october and am almost halfway through and i am gunning to finish them some time in the next few weeks...
... FURTHERMORE, i am also planning on finishing the rest of the DOTS modules for the year (with the next sets due february and june '12) ASAP.
wtf?
lol anyway i should be sleeping now
sigh. work.
at least there's only 8 more days left til payday! WOOHOO :D
